Before I delve into my paranormal romance preferences, I want to ask anyone out there in the world a question: What is the draw of Vampires? Why are they interesting to you?
I’m asking because I’m genuinely curious. I’ve gotten a lot of various answers to the question when I’ve asked it. Some people just like the fact that they live forever. Some people find them sexy. Others like the frisson of horror.
They don’t appeal to me. I think part of this is because at their most basic – at the Bram Stoker root of it all – the Vampire legend is one of spoiled innocence. The faithful virgin, curious about love but patient, and her sullying and deflowering by this sensual predator.
Maybe because I was never a save-it-for-marriage kind of girl, but this pent up sexual frustration just really never did it for me. To this day, if paranormal romances lean too much into the vampy stuff, I tend to cut and run. I don’t mind them as a part of the whole world (like Stephen in Mercy‘s world), but I don’t want them as a protagonist or a love interest, either. The only vampire I’ve ever really enjoyed fantasizing about was Spike from Buffy, and that was as much about James Marsters as it was about the character.
Because honestly, a girl can only lose her innocence once. After that, she’s just a fibber.
On the other hand, I can really get into some Werewolf porn.
Again, if we take it back to it’s beastly beginnings, the werewolf is a metaphor for the beast within. That caged wildness that we all have. Anger we bottle up. Passion we don’t act upon. RAWR.
I had serious anger issues when I was in my teens and twenties – mostly because I bottled it. I didn’t want to let the rage flow through me. I tended to date people with anger management problems to get them to be angry for me. That doesn’t work out so well.
I’ve learned to be angry on my own behalf, and that my fuse is short, bright, and dies quickly. But I know about bottling it up. I know that feeling of a beast inside trying to claw its way out.
I relate better to werewolves than I do to vampires. And my reading habits reflect that.
Which do you prefer? Do you think it reflects something about you?